B & R Week- Day 4

Okay so I can really only claim to be on day 2 since I had leftovers in the refrigerator to eat on Sunday and Monday. However, this is HARD. What a lesson in how incredibly spoiled I am! I had been approaching this fast as more of a way to make sure I eat what I have instead of going to the vending machine at work and getting a snack or going to the grocery store and buying something to make when I already have plenty in my pantry. Last night my mom, my sister, and I went to Last Wednesday church service and I kind of felt like maybe I was taking the easy way out. Of course I didn’t go to the grocery, I wasn’t taking my occasional trip to Dunkin. I wasn’t eating out at lunch like I occasionally will. Certainly no trips to Starbucks, but I had so much food in my house to eat off of it just really wasn’t feeling like a huge sacrifice, I was just doing something I should have been doing all along. So I started eating beans Tuesday night, had some left overs Wednesday and now it’s beans and rice from here on out.

The dish I made last night is gross, really gross.  Maybe because I don’t particularly appreciate the taste of beans, at all.  But I have a pot of it, so how big of an A-hole would I be if I threw it away?  That would completely defeat the purpose of this assignment.  So guess what, I might be starving enough to eat my chapstick, but it doesn’t matter that will be lunch and dinner today and possible lunch on day 5.  This is how people HAVE to live, what a way to appreciate what you have. 

I got to work this morning and there were donuts on the table and cupcakes. If you know me you know my live for cupcakes. These weren’t just any old cupcakes. A woman in my office, every Easter, makes little cakes in the shape of an egg and then dips them in white chocolate (my heart literally hurts talking about this.) Anyway I came in the donuts were there, I picked one up, thinking “I didn’t buy these!” I took two bites and the guilt started to sink in. This is not a sacrifice. So after a very elaborate argument with myself I gave the donut a new home. Then I noticed the cake and thought okay if I don’t eat that, that is a huge sacrifice for me.

Moral of the story, I am so spoiled.

 
Things I’ve learned about myself so far:

• I will skew anything to make it sound better
• I hate doing hard things
• A huge sacrifice for me is passing on a cupcake

I appreciate this fast, it’s teaching me a lot about myself.